Sometimes it's hard to reconcile who I am versus who I want to be.
✨ I want to be the boss lady.
✨ I want to be the professional actress/filmaker lady.
✨ I want to be the stay at home mom.
✨ I want to be the devoted girlfriend, friend, sister, daughter and be there 100% for others.
It's hard trying to be everything at once. So I usually default to 1 "setting" lol -> and it's not always by choice. That's why every now and then when I catch myself in a rut, I take a few days to be anyone I want to be. To shake it up a bit.
Do you do this too? Or am I the only one??
😵 Lately, I've been work, work, work, busy mom. I wasn't spending quality time with my kid 🙁 Which sucks because they grow so fast!
This week, I am the stay-at-home mom. Where cleaning and cooking and doing things for my kid is my #1 job. And spending as much time as she can handle with her lol. And I love it. I wish it could be like this all of the time.
😐 It's hard going from boss lady 98% of the time to 98% stay-at-home mom. But I won't be able to be that anymore after a while so I am taking advantage of this lol.
Why does it feel wrong to want to have it all?
I am so inspired and driven to do one thing or another and I often feel neglectful of the other aspects in my life.
Sometimes I feel I am not a 'true' stay-at-home mom because I blog and work. Sometimes I don't feel like a 'true' boss lady because I stay home with my homeschooling kid.
It feels wrong to call myself a housekeeper because I don't clean every single moment of the day. And because I don't make my pancakes from scratch.
Is this what it means to be a modern stay-work-from-home-mom? To feel wrong or fake? Or am I too old-fashioned for my own good and putting too much pressure on myself? Surely, I am not the only one feeling this way.
How to keep the balance.
This is when affirmations save me from myself. I have to remind myself it's not wrong to do what I want and to do what I can to take care of myself and my family. Notice I still put 'myself' first. I can't be any of the things I want to be if I don't take care of my sanity and myself first.
Unfortunately, there is no magic formula to help me figure out exactly what I can do to maintain an exact balance. But I do try to implement things from every aspect into my daily routine. This way I feel well-rounded and satisfied at the end of the day.
Here is an example of my routine:
- Drink Water,
- Take my vitamins and meds
- Read a book, drink coffee, & journal
- Read with kiddo, help her brush her hair, and help with school
- Yoga/Stretch or Workout & drink Protein shake
- Clean up & do chores
- Do some Course Work
- Blogging
- Business Stuff, networking, marketing, advertising, financials
- Run errands
- Walk Dogs, Make dinner, Clean kitchen
- Family time
- Shower, Read book & bedtime routine
Typing this out, it does look like a lot. I try to do the entire list but some days are too crazy and few things have to go out the window. If you notice, a lot of that is broken up into almost everything I want to focus on. It helps me touch on my self-care, parenting, home-keeping, business management, and blogging.
But that leaves no time for filmmaking and acting. There is always something that stays out of that list and I am just trying to find a way to fit it all in.
I know, I can't complain, for the most part, my life is complete. But if you are the creative type, you can understand how suffocating it is to not be able to do what calls to you. End scene. 😂
Affirmation: I accept myself for what I am able to do and do what I love most.
✨ This week I am visiting little corners of my house I haven't visited in a while. Cleaning, rearranging, and decorating. I've always wanted to have a French Country style of decor.
Without realizing it, most of my furniture and decor already is that. So I'm just putting in the little touches.
🙋 Did you know that changing your environment can help you if you are feeling blah? Or if you are trying to kick an old habit and start a new one?
Not all of us can afford to take a vacation but revisiting forgotten spots around your home or backyard can have a similar effect.
Change it up a bit and you'll see a boost in your mood.
How do you like the little update on my bathroom's environment?
Poke around my blog, GottaLoveMyself.com for more on habits, mindfulness, and living the life you want. Thanks for reading and hope that this post brings you some comfort if you are going through the same. If you have figured it out...help a sister out! Tell me, how do you manage to do it all?
xoxo
Nancy
